bricks

responsibility is an invisible weight that will always be clinging on your back anywhere you go. responsibility to the things that i own. whether permanently or temporarily (in other words, borrowed things). to those whom i love. family and friends, mother nature, and her children. to the university. then why did i skip classes? i have the responsibility to go to all classes. to do the best for my assignments.

but sometimes i forgot about this weight that is dangling on my back. it's like an extra limb. like how a cat would feel like, having a long tail. it's like, it's a part of me. so i realized, i need to able to separate my physical being from my responsibility.

i need to be able to separate my responsibility from my physical being.

anyhow, just remember. responsibility.
ultimately, as a rational creature. fulfill your responsibility. think of how you would feel, if you were somebody else, looking at yourself. would you feel sick seeing you being that way? would you feel angry with yourself for doing such thing? step outside the brick, linda.

saving us or saving the planet?

i can't believe there are people who thought that earth hour is ridiculous. i thought humans are humans, who have humane qualities and characteristics. and no one would say that cutting down electrical consumption for one hour is ridiculous.

i'm so disappointed.

i know like, one hour a year, like that is going to get you anywhere. but i think once everyone is used to this, perhaps we could do it more frequently in the future, say, every quarterly.

so disappointed. how can we save earth if people keep thinking that 'oh, what's the point, it's not that it would help making anything better.'

:( dear earth, i'm crying for you.

difference in the sample of population

someone's status on facebook

Cubalah Biasakan diri menyebut "Ya Allah", "Astaghfirullah", "La ilaha illallah", "Masya Allah" instead of kita menyebut "Oh my God".

like, what's the difference? aren't arabic and english just languages. and since when languages started to become a barrier for you to communicate or show appreciation to God?

knowing

i overheard this one girl talking to her younger brother who's probably 2 or 3 years younger than her, who asked her "what's 'Teriyaki'?" when he saw the word on the signboard of one of the food counters at the student centre: "Oh, it's chinese food." I was laughing silently and picturing myself pointing my finger at her and rolling on the floor, laughing my ass off. i mean, couldn't she tell by the red circle print on white background on the chef's hat and apron?

i accidentally wore a green sweater on st patrick's day. so i was one of about 80% of Mac students who wore green on that day.

a reminder to myself. the end does not really justify the means. in most cases, it doesn't. so modify your intentions, use your head. it's like turning the reactivity of a nuclear reactor to go above the critical condition just for fun because you knew that the safety factor of the reactor is much larger than the minimum value. it's wrong to do so as it would melt the core, but you thought it was safe and you're doing it for fun (like come on, life would be more fun if you're willing to do crazy things occasionally). but what if luck was just not on your side that day? like it or not, probability rules. eventhough einstein said god does not play dice. but god controls the whole universe, including probability. and people would have calculated that the probability of such accident to happen would be almost negligible, but it would never be zero. so even if there was a probability of a very small fraction of infinity, there is still a chance for an event to occur. this just shows that the world, the system that we live in silently agrees that there is something else that is controlling our surrounding. who else if it isn't our creator? god knows everything. the close ones may not know, but god knows. so use your head.

brownfield redevelopment

an underused parking lot. my assignment asks for a redevelopment proposal for this site. my group member suggested to have a community center but i was thinking of having a mini entertainment center instead initially. but i realized it's kinda ridiculous. so i did some more research and after asking for some of my friends' opinions i think that a research center would be a good one. the site is very near to the university and it's situated exactly next to a housing area with a football field and a huge grocery store on the other side.

the community center, my groupmate argued, would benefit the neighbourhood as it would provide services such as gym, sports courts, party rooms, conference room, kids day care and what not with affordable charges. in terms of the economic contribution, they said that the employment created and the revenue made from the services provided would help increase the GDP, the same goes for government spending which would increase in order to provide funds to the center.

but i, on the other hand, prefer to have a research center instead. a research center would be a valuable asset for the city both in the short and long run. aside from the creation of significant number of tertiary employments, it would also encourage the movement of professionals from big cities like toronto. indirectly, the spending in hamilton would increase as the workers would tend to rent local houses and spend their money in hamilton. in the long run, the researches made at the center would contribute to scientific and social improvements and also the government would probably offer funds in order to conduct the researches.

i also found about science park or technology park which integrates researches and businesses through the collaboration between educational movements and business institutions. science park also provide assistance and supports to businesses to invest in innovation or product enhancement. so i think science park would definitely contribute to the development of economy and the society.

brownfield: parking lot

but those two insist on having the community center. which makes me wonder, how capitalist i am at heart. hahaha. okay maybe i am not doing justice to the term that i used. but something like that. not really leaning towards socialism. like money is considered as one of the priorities. what do you guys think? which one would likely be the best solution?

thanks in advance for your response(s) :D

futuristic box

I received a newsletter from Best Buy Canada that "informs" the consumers that 3D TV is now available at Best Buy. I was like, 3D? Check out the website, there's even a "stylish" 3D glasses that need to be purchased separately (besides the cable, blu ray player, etc which also need to be purchased separately in order to experience the 3D-ness). Ape da... It's a 3D TV for physic's sake, why wouldn't the glasses be included in the package? It's not that I would want to buy it, those metal, glasses, plastics, and silicone are sold for $2500 (the smallest model) + tax together (as a TV) but I'd just like to point out how smart these huge companies are in maximizing their profits.


I went to bed early today, so I woke up early as well. 330am is early, isn't it? And I had an iced capp after I woke up. And it made me hyper. Avoid iced capp early in the morning people :D

I miss Bruges, Belgium. Summer 2009.

Ray: Bruges is a shithole.
Ken: Bruges *is* not a shithole.
Ray: Bruges *is* a shithole.
Ken: Ray, we only just got off the fucking train! Could we reserve judgement on Bruges until we've seen the fucking place?

"In Bruges", 2008

LOL, Ray hates Bruges. But I love Bruges so much.

the greatest gift

punishing and giving something because you deserve it are different. punishment would send you straight to the jail, losing all your freedom. now, a slap or a few light punches are actually fair if you've done something that hurts everyone around you. giving something when those people don't deserve it, i think that's just... not right. but well, everyone has his/her own opinion. so this is mine, and hope everyone can respect that. thank you.

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I have given everything that I got, I did my best. And if this is what I deserve or a test for me to become stronger, I accept that with a humble heart.

"O Lord, forgive me, my parents and Muslims in the Hereafter. O Lord, show mercy on them as they have nourished me when I was young."

I asked my dad to call me today because i was crying so hard that I just wanted to talk to him. he tried to calm me down, telling me to not give up and not to be sad and worry. Once in a while i could hear mom's voice as well. it was around 130 in the morning in Malaysia. I felt relieved and stopped crying after talking to him. and 15 minutes later mom called me, trying to comfort me as well.

"you made dad cry, akak." T_T i didn't mean to, i said it's the only thing i thought of. to talk to both of my parents. and i shot thousands of apologies to mom, but she said, it's okay we are all in this.

and dad just called me and i asked did he sleep well last night. he said he couldn't sleep at all. I feel so bad and i told him i'm so sorry about it. but of course he doesn't mind at all. Dear God, guard my parents as they guarded me since i was born, bless them with happiness, tranquility and great health, and let me not forget to remember them in my prayers each second of the day. Dear God, I really really am thankful for having those two greatest people on earth as my parents. Thank you so much... T_T